December 6, 2012

Nathan and I are super excited about this news and the plan God has planned for us.  This was a big surprise but we are overjoyed.  We were going to start trying this summer but someone had bigger plans for us.  

How we found out.....

    I was a day late which never happens so I made the trip to Walmart to buy a pregnancy test.  I was a little embarrassed I don't know why because I am certainly old enough to have a baby but anyway I was uncomfortable.  There was a lady on the isle looking at condoms.  I could feel the tension in the air.  I was nervous and I could tell she was uncomfortable too.  So I grabbed the box of two and as I walked away she said good luck.  Weird right?  I didn't respond because I didn't know what to say.  Should I have said good luck?  All I can say is she made it feel more awkward than it already was.  So I went home and took the test without telling Nathan because I didn't want him to worry.  It was negative so I just thought I was being paranoid.  We went to our friends baby shower in Dallas and I really never thought about it again until I got home.  I woke up Monday morning went to the gym like always and came home to shower.  Before I jumped in the shower I thought I would take the second test just in case.  I knew that if it wasn't positive there was something wrong like cancer or something awful.  I peed and took a shower.  When I got out of the shower I went to look at the test knowing it was going to be negative again but it WASN'T!!!  I didn't know what to do.  I hadn't prepared myself for this.  My heart was pounding so hard I thought I might have a heart attack.  I went to work that day and didn't say a word to anyone.  It was the longest day ever and I am not sure how great of a teacher I was because my mind was thinking about the baby all day.  During my off time I ran to Target and got a onesie that said my parents love me.  I also went to the book store and bought Nathan a book called What to expect when my wife if expanding.  I went home after school and waited impatiently for Nathan to get home.  When he finally got home I asked him how his day was and he said okay.  He told me that the Vet called (where we kennel Bender and Bruiser) to tell him that we couldn't board the dogs there anymore because they are too much of a liability.  They were worried that Bruiser would get out again and get run over.  So Nathan told me that we were going to have to get rid of the dogs for sure now.  This has been an on going conversation for the past year or so.  When Nathan is telling me this I am thinking that God has truly answered a prayer because we are about to have a baby and it wouldn't work with the dogs and a new baby.  So after he finished telling me about the vet I told him that I had good news and something I wanted to show him.  I told him to close his eyes and I went to get the test and onesie.  I came back and held the onesie on my belly.  Keep in mind the date is April 2nd.  He opens his eyes and looks at me like he is completely confused.  He asked me if I was joking.  I showed him the test and said no.  Then he hugged me and we were kind of laughing and trying not to cry.